Renewing my vows

Getting back together

We’ve all been here before, where we set the tone for the endeavour that would follow. I met the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with , I invested everything I hoped I would receive in return and gave up the fleeting things just so I could have the world that was in her. Love was so deep in me I thought it would never leave home. But we were constantly at war. She, the unsatisfied one was constantly seeking approval and validation from outsiders , wanting to know if she had enough of what it would take to be valued . To be remembered , to be seen in a world of people who only viewed her, but never saw her for who she was. It wasn’t cheating unless she got caught, according to her. Flirting with temptation was just a test to prove how strong her love was, and how weak her desires were. “i can handle myself” is what she would say when the results were proven 100% positive in weakness. In failure . She failed, and she needed to get back to her lover’s tenderness, so she searched for her home and got lost along the way. Eventually after being dragged by her conscience, she arrived safe but not sound.She made her way to the door, that had been left open awaiting her return but…the house was vacant . She called out to her lover and no one answered .She checked all the rooms that were locked and only found one that had been open in a far corner of the house with no light entering, just a pure dark,cold and silent room, where her lover was waiting.

“I know that we’ve spent some time apart my love but God has shown his favour on this reunion” she said to her lover. In hopes that , the one who never left would find truth in such heavy words. Her lover, with teary eyes looked at her,took a deep breath and said the following:

You were always enough for me. I never chose you out of obligation. We share the same flaws, pain , concerns and deepest regrets , and still I never regret choosing to love you everyday. We must thank God for a life so challenging and chaotic ,because we will always go looking for peace no matter how far we are from it. My love, I’m not broken,although I have been shattered. I’ve longed for you and wept ,night after night not knowing how much you would lose ,but hoping your lacking would bring you back to me.We have endured the sickness and maybe death drew us apart or death gave us a restart but, I will take us to love and to hold. Forever and ever.